Friday, June 30, 2006

id rather fight w u
than make love to anyone else’




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Thursday, June 29, 2006

i used to live at 18 stanford ct. rent was about $200 since there were about 8 people living there in a 3 bdrm 3 bath townhouse.  those were some of the best days of my life even though at the time i couldn’t wait to move on and into my own apartment.  it is right across the street from campus but my lazy ass still bought an overpriced permit and drove to school.  for some reason things were easy. i would study the night before and breeze right through all the classes. i even picked up a double major and minor just to make the parents happy and have an excuse to stay one extra year.  i would take summer school but it wasn’t really summer school. it was 2 hours out of a sunny day that forced me to wake up early but allowed me to enjoy the rest of the afternoon to hang out, hit the beach and just be happy.  there were always people around.. even if it meant they were just watching tv in the next room, there was always someone to piss away time with or someone a phone call away to jump on spur of the moment adventures to frisco or vegas or even tj.  time definitely changes things.. people move on, get swallowed up by the 9-5 and priorities are shifted. a quick trip to grub on some burgers now takes a one week notice and a calendar check to make it happen.. and even then something might come up and plans are postponed and postponed and postponed until years pass and you get a new phone and you wonder whether or not to keep certain numbers because you haven’t talked to them in ages.  i don’t want to get erased. somehow i think its too late.




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Tuesday, June 27, 2006

we crucify ourselves between two thieves:
regret for yesterday and fear of tomorrow




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WANTED: UGLY TRUSTY SIDEKICK
Females preferred, if male, must be gay no exceptions
Must stay loyal and not have sex within my circle of friends
Must be a good listener, and be available at all hours to hear me bitch and moan about my life
Must like shopping and tell me I look fabulous when I’m trying on clothes
Must like sappy love movies and corny comedy flicks
Must do laundry and dishes
For more info please contact me asap,
position must be filled before I go insane.




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i feel like im being ostracized




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Friday, June 23, 2006

Okay it works again.. whoa that was the longest this site has been down in 2 and ½ years!




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Oh my gosh. My website has been down for 3 days now. I changed my hosting and it usually takes 24-48 hours to propagate but for some reason micfo does not like me. im bummed. Its separation anxiety. No outlet to turn to, no where to run.. arghghhghghghh!!!




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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

the dark cloud
i thought filtered through
has remerged

im scared




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Monday, June 19, 2006

if i had the right brush
i would paint you all around me
drown in your colors
seeping through my canvas




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Friday, June 16, 2006

its hard to face the world
when the problem is your face.

i seriously saw this on an acne commercial.
way to boost up self esteem in troubled adolescents.




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Thursday, June 15, 2006

yesterday i came to the realization that i had not pooped for almost seven days!
that’s about 15 meals sitting in my stomach… how unreal is that?
i could see this tiny bulge developing in my lower abdomen
and this time i knew that it wasn’t just from beer.
i tried. i really, really tried and it hurt. hurt really, really bad.
i could feel the veins popping out on my forehead
from all the energy i was exerting trying to force out a lost cause.

yes girls do poop.

i would not wish this feeling upon anyone, not even my worst enemy.
well maybe an ex boyfriend.. but even then that is so utterly cruel.
so i did what any rational person would do in a situation like this.
i headed to the great taco bell and loaded up on some grub
with a super duper large dr. pepper that i refilled twice.
needless to say if i ever write a book on how to cure constipation,
i will not forget to insert a taco bell menu and nearest locations for their convenience.




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Tuesday, June 13, 2006




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Im so freakin restless
I can hardly contain myself




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Never make someone a priority if you're only an option.
-jenny




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Thursday, June 08, 2006

im scared




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Wednesday, June 07, 2006

you'll no longer be kissed and kind
as you long for intuition
as you have to learn the lesson twice..
things look much bigger on your knees

the notwist - one with the freaks




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“While most feel they must battle against the world,
I
struggle against the battle within myself –
the world is only a backdrop.”

intriguing, to say the least




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Monday, June 05, 2006

The Perfect Man
He could be anywhere in the world
but he chooses to be with her because
life is better with her by his side.




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hell hath no fury
like a woman scorned




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