Sunday, June 26, 2016

I want to believe that I can do at least 
six impossible things,
before breakfast.

EILEENSZYMANSKICHEN



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Saturday, June 25, 2016

The only way to achieve the impossible
is to believe that it's possible.



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Monday, June 13, 2016

I AM INSPIRED BY THE EPHEMERAL SPACE OF TIME;
THE MOMENTS THAT DIE AND THEN ARE REBORN
THROUGH THE WAY THEY MAKE US FEEL.




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Wednesday, June 08, 2016





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as i read this now, it's weird 
that the younger version of me 
is giving me advice via 



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Tuesday, June 07, 2016

from the archives




The word for today is baggage.

Everyone has it.

 

I think once you get past the age of 21 it is pretty much a certainty that you have somehow, someway been severely jaded by the opposite sex in the past.  For those of you early bloomers, maybe even younger.  So it is practically inevitable that dating after this turning point age can become increasingly difficult to say the least.

 

Comparison is inevitable but it is how you suppress and overcome it that matters. Every single individual on this entire planet is different and has been through "things". Not only are they unique in their own way, they interact with others in multiple variances as well. For example, lets do a for instance.  Say you have absolutely sworn off a particular restaurant because you found out that the "X" factor had taken his/her other prey there when that was "YOUR" restaurant. Now let's continue on saying that this is one of those diamond in the rough restaurants that is just absolutely unreal and you water at the mouth craving it. Would you bring your new "beau" there despite the bad memories you had with "X" factor or would you write it off and never enter through its doors again?

 

Can you imagine what the world would be like if every time you started dating a new person it was like you were in junior high again, finally dating your biggest crush, no baggage, no "X" factors, no random hidden skeletons in the closet that will bite you in the ass a couple weeks, months, years down the line. Oh the butterflies that would be jostling in your tummy. Instead we are stuck behind rice paper walls that could tear and break your already fractured and defensive heart in an instant.

 

They always say that pictures tell a thousand words. It is so unbelievably true and it sucks compiling all the thousands of words that invade your head when you glance at an image from your past or even more so, viewing pictures of your new beau's past. It's like peeking into their lives, you never knew happened.  That image is evidence that THEY DID THINGS and you WEREN'T IN IT... or how about when you look at your own old pictures, you think to yourself, I did that? that was me?? what happened to ME?


The most eerie thing is to look at pictures of your parents from the past and seeing them all happy, young and in love. It hurts even more so when you are seeing how happy your dad was and never getting the chance to get to know him yourself. If i could rub a magic genie bottle my one wish would definitely be to have even just a couple of minutes with him to experience a real father-daughter conversation and try to translate the thousands of words that have been stacking up in my head every time I see old pics of him smile in a photograph.

 

my mom says we smile the same. I can't imagine what it is like to look into your own child's eyes and see the same smile you said "I do" to.


maybe I will be able to give up beer for 9 months,

one day...




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Wednesday, June 01, 2016

live to give
instead of receive



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